The past 3 days have had it's ups and downs, very swiftly. It's like being on a rollercoaster blindfolded, you never know what the next moment is going to bring.
Oct 30th: Samantha had Remington Andrew Wagner
Oct 31st: Halloween, Brother's 25th birthday, Samantha dies
Nov 1st: Today...shock hits bottom.
I woke up and instead of seeing her post on facebook about how cute Remi is or how well Evie is adapting to a brother, instead of a sister as they planned, I see posts about how sad people are and prayers to her family. I met her the first day of pre-k (along with Andrea and Katie). I am heartbroken, pissed off, confused, and more.I feel horrible that her husband is now alone raising two kids (almost 4yo and newborn). I feel horrible that her parents have to bury yet another child. She was only 26! She just had a baby, did God really need her that badly he couldn't have waited? I know I know it's God I shouldn't question his judgement but I am, and want to. It just isn't fair.
All day today I kept thinking of how much she loved this season. She was born to live in the North. She missed it every day she lived in the South and complained on a weekly basis at least. She was so happy about Evie's halloween costume (a kangaroo) that she made, and the weather finally getting cold. There's snow in the forcast for this coming week Sam! You're going to miss it, but I'm sure you'll see it from heaven. Say "hi" to Andy for all of us, I know you missed him.
So many thoughts and memories keep happening. I know I'm disorganized in the post. But anyone reading this please pray for her family/families.
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